i am siting in front of my apartment balcony. Today's pretty hot, humid and windy and it looks like it's about to rain. Well, ottwa's weather is just not as good. I have to go grocery shopping soon.
People keep on asking me how are things in ottawa, my work and my life. I just don't know how to tell. The job itself is interesting and simple. it gives me a good chance to see the whole operation of National Defence. However,u know? it's just interesting for a short period (1 yr) assignment, cuz I am sure this is not the right place to stay as my career. the hard and confusing part is to figure out my career path, like what to do and where I want to be after this 1 yr assignment and my 2nd yr assignemnt. I have to see if National Defence can offer the kind of job that suits my career path. So, I have to learn all the complex to hell organization structures and what each of these little departments do, in order to find out where I want to be and what I want to do. Because if there isn't anything interseting I better find other place to go after my 2 yrs assignments' done. This process isn't as easy as it sounded, because u know the bureaucracy...I am still not very clear of the organizational structure now.
Everything's new, and I am in the big organization. I have to figure out where to go borrow books, who to ask for career advice, where the gym is, how my compensation plan goes and my union records etcs. at the mean time, I still have to make my way into knowing more people. It's hard to always meet new people, because u don' t get to relax and be yourself. sometimes, I just wish there is someone with who I can just be myself, do stupid things and feel relaxed. At least someone who understands me and can give me a hug when I feel all frustrated and stressed. However, it's always meeting new people or being myself.
Everyday, after work, I am drained like hell, so I am usually sleepy around 6 or 7. But at 11 or 12, I can't fricking sleeping at the regular hours. the sleep quality's bad, and I will have these strange nightmares, etc, then the other morning waking up as if I've never slept.
I try to make myself buy like hell, so that I won't feel lonely. I registered for this French course which will start Sept 6. So, every thue and thurs I need to attend this 1.5 hours class after work from 5:30 - 8. Then, I will register for this CMA designation soon, which is the certified managerial acountant's designation. I believe the majority of the time will be gone too. God, i just wish I can really make use of these 2-3 yrs in Ottawa, becuase I've given up a lot.
K, thanks for saying that horoscope thing to me eh? "You are reaping off harvests from your past efforts, but you need lots of
time to plan your
life!"
well, it's such a encouragement, somehow. thanks.
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